Chrissy Teigen feels, 'like utter sh*t'
Chrissy Teigen came under fire earlier this year following allegations of online bullying.
The social media star previously addressed her wrongdoings and even released a letter of apology, admitting she was once an online, 'troll.'
Now, nearly a month on, she's giving her fans an update on how she's coping amid the criticism.
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In the caption of an Instagram post, Chrissy wrote, 'Iiiii don’t really know what to say here...'
'just feels so weird to pretend nothing happened in this online world but feel like utter shit in real life.'
'Going outside sucks and doesn’t feel right, being at home alone with my mind makes my depressed head race.'
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She continued, 'But I do know that however I’m handling this now isn’t the right answer.'
'I feel lost and need to find my place again,I need to snap out of this, I desperately wanna communicate with you guys instead of pretending everything is okay.'
'I’m not used to any other way!!'
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The, 'Cancel Club'
The 35-year-old went on, 'Cancel club is a fascinating thing and I have learned a whollllle lot.'
'Only a few understand it and it’s impossible to know til you’re in it.'
'And it’s hard to talk about it in that sense because obviously you sound whiney when you’ve clearly done something wrong.'
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Chrissy continued, 'It just sucks. There is no winning. But there never is here anyhow.'
'All I know is I love you guys, I miss you guys, and I just needed an honest moment with you because I’m just...tired of being sick with myself all day.'
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'I don’t even know if it’s good to say any of this because it’s gonna get brutally picked apart but I dunno.'
'I can’t do this silent shit anymore! If you or someone you know has also been cancelled please let me know if there is a cancel club reunion because I could use some time off my couch!'
'Thank u and goodbye I love u,' Chrissy concluded.
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Read more about the allegations and Chrissy's public apology here.
